There is something you may not know about me…
I’m really super impatient. Not in ALL things, just most.
Especially when I think I have a good idea. I want it done NOW. I don’t care that I have 4 loads of laundry that need to be done, floors that should be cleaned, or a checkbook that I really should balance BEFORE making that trip to the store. I want to do it RIGHT NOW!
I’m working on it. I have a list of the projects I want to do in each room of our home. (Maybe I should prioritize that list….Hmmm)
But it isn’t just projects that I’m impatient to have completed. I’m also pretty impatient in relationships. I don’t mean like with my husband and kids (though I really am – again I’m working on it.) I mean relationships with people who don’t live in my home. I’ve said it before, we move… a lot. The thing about that is, I always expect to have new friends right away.
Guess what… that hasn’t EVER happened.
Why? Because relationships take work. I may be surrounded by very welcoming people, but it takes time and effort to get to know them and for them to get to know me. The fishbowl can be a very lonely place, but it doesn’t have to be.
My problem with patience has extended into this little virtual home too.
When I started this blog a little over a year ago, I had a million little ideas and plans and I wanted to share them with some huge adoring public. (I also have problems with realistic expectations.) But the masses never showed up. I quickly got discouraged and gave up. That isn’t really surprising is it?
But, the truth is that sometimes I just really need to talk to someone. And even if only a handful of people read what I have to say or no one comments on my thoughts, I still have this need. So here’s to no more shame or embarrassment that my last post was 9 months ago. I’m back with a new plan and some realistic goals and expectations. Who knows, maybe someday I will be able to say that I am able to generate as much traffic as my bloggy idols. But if not, that’s okay too.
Have you ever just given up on something you really cared about? Did you regret that choice? Will you join me in sucking up your hurt pride and giving it another go?